Saturday, November 29, 2008

i had enough!
u noe hw xin ku it is to keep everything inside myself?
did i sae i din learn my lesson?
did i sae i dun wanna change?
i sae i will try rite?
n i wil..
bcos i noe i dun wanna disappoint u..
i noe u did alot 4 me..
so i dun wanna let u shi wang again..
i mean it frm e bottom of my heart..
n bcos i noe..
u reali cares,
tt's y u bother to chat on e fone wif me 4 3+hrs..
thru ur long mrt journey..
juz to tell me..
i cares alot abt u too..
i noe i cant afford to lose u tis frenz in my life..
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but..
my unhappiness..
my confusion,
my disappointment,.
u all cant c izzit?
u all cant feel izzit?
i trust..
i believe..
so i open up..
but i dun expect u to share so much thing ..
i seriously dunno where can i trust frm.
2 person telling me..
wantin me gd..
but..
y e things u 2 sae..
nv tally..
hu shld i believe nw?
i seriously dunno.
i oso noe i couldnt ask le..
cos i ask n cfm but e words still doesnt tally..
i lost e faith alr..
i dun wanna sae out.
is cos i dun wan cause any more troubles/worries alr..
but..
thing seems 2 get worse.
u ask me.
pls dun disappoint ***....
but ..
wat abt my disappointment?
u totali hu shi my disappointment?
my disappointment in u..
trust u to tell all tis to others when i din expect u ..
en?
hu can tell u dun disappoint me?
i nw en realise u r an impt frenz 2 me.
seriously cos i realise i mind alot.
but y i open up to trust u en such thing happen?
u told ***..
y i like care too much 4 tt matter..
causing e misunderstanding...
but when i ask u..
u sae u din sae tt ...
so nw wat?
hu is lying to me?
i m nt upset wif u all tellin me all tis..
i m nt angry..
cos i noe all tis is 4 my own good..
but..
y u guys de words juz dun tally..
it make me so confused..
wat makes me e most upset is..
y u all de words dun tally but when i ask u still insist no such thing..
haix..
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but aft next wk everything gonna end le..
juz gonna throw all behind me le..
juz let me find a place where i can grumble like nobody's biz
=)