i tried too hard alr...too hard..too much..till i cant control myself oso le..i cant pick myself up..i lied..i dun haf e strength nor courage to.....yuan lai zhen de hen nan bu qu zai yi...wei le zi ji ye wei le bie ren..wo yi zhi zai ren..wo hai neng ren dou jiu..yao bu shi wei le PP..wo zhao jiu beng kui le.......