ok..quite long ago since i blog le..2dae came..cos i feel so e dwn..so e no mood..i alr on e verge of goin break dwn le..haix..wasnt a gd dae since ytd..i dun like ppl keep blamin ppl when u dunno em well..come on la...he dun do anythin lor..u din c anythin gd doesnt mean he dun haf..every1 haf gd n bad pts de lor..me oso..u oso lor..so hw can we like tt blame sum1 4 thing he shld b given a choice de..-.-..went work on sat..enaft tt went sentosa..alot ppl..went ere play volley ball n brought hm 2 blue black arm..-.-..but overall..fun yet sianx..i cant brin up my mood since sat le..cos of e shift thingy..asy wanted me 2 help him..cos i noe he cant cope..summore i wan change oso cos i wan tt shift..ee benben jenn all tt shift..gt ppl pei me..but end up..ju dun let go me..she wan me same shift as her..she sae she nid my help oso..wat i can do..was onli to er er er..dun wan let asy noe 1st ar..en ju sae dun care him..when benben saw tt new shift..he help me object...but ju dun care him oso..en he told me he jing li le..-.-..wat can i do..i noe ju here nid help oso..cos stella alr fix 2 email le..en if she promote 2 atl.she nid b on e grd sumtimes..so cant ans call.so left me..haix..i reali dun wan upset any side so i diam diam lor..sianx..last time wat tys n ling dear sae me is so true..i m reali v easily affected by ppl decision n most criucial pt..i m so e soft hearted..ya fine i m..-.-..en aft tt went vivo for dinner..aft tt went pcc..drink coffee..love e atmosphere ere..e seats all those swingin de..ee!next time we go sit k??find a dae..en juz beside is e sea..can imagine..wind blowi at nite..light all lighted up..boats movin..cable car passin by wif flashin colored lights..woo..but i was kinda affected by sth..so when marvin suggest go ktv pub..i agreed..en eric drove us ere..while benben n marvin took mrt cos car nt enough seats..alr gt me jenny n ricky le..en went ere drink lor..i love e sofa lor..L shape de.ok cos..i ba e corner seat.=X..en drink martell wif green tea..woo..super nice..haha..en end up keep drinkin till my head giddy when i start..tt was onli when i realise i reali drank too much le..at least gt 10 cups..summore play guessin game wif ricky..keep losin..en benben help em bu shuang..jiu play wif ricky..en aft tt ricky keep losin..wahahha..en play wif benben..lian xu 6 times dou i lose..en lose de muz drink ma..so tt contributed 2..hahahaha..en 12+ jiu go off le..i cant even walk straight lor..but i manage 2 board eric car..en i tink inside e car i was crappin n chao high de..nw i cant even rem sum of wat i sae..dun care la..ppl drunk sae de thing dou shi crap..=X..2dae de too angry le..too much 2 type..so i dun wan sae le..but..i can onl isae..i choose nt 2 sae anythin..nt cos i scare or wat..i oso choose dun ask ppl sae.is cos i noe..no matter hw indirect other ppl go sae..it will still affected badli le..i dun wan anythin 2 change bet tis grp of us..i dun wan end up lian go out as norm oso cant..cos i noe consequences is serious de..so..juz let it b ba..wat i can sae is..i will hide all tis unhappiness le..i dun wan show out so easily le..all tis is my prob..i dun wan surroundin ppl 2 get affected....juz nw was aft so long..i went my hse river ere n sit.ee call me chat..en 1/2way benben call me..en he sae his hse fone call bu liao my fone..so chat a while jiu hang le..went back 2 ee but totali no sound..en i msg her lor.tink my hp spoiltin soon?but aft tt benben call can again..he sae use his outside fone call en can..use cordless en cant..weird...chat n i stay ere till almost 9pm en went hm..i was feelin better le..i guess i hav been too stress le..i even gt e tinkin of jumpin into e river or juz jump dwn n end everythin.but was kana shoot by ee..i reali cant take it le..too stress..too pressurised le...