i m feelin kinda depressed again tis few daes..wantin so much 2 share wif..but i totali doesnt haf e time 2 meet up wif frenz..work is nt stress..but everytime stayin aft work reali takin too much of my time le..haix..wo hao xiang xi huan shang sum1 tt i shldnt love le..i noe totali it's impossible for us 2 b 2gether de..in e world..so many ppl hopin he n sum1 else 2 b 2gether..but weird..it's onli recently en i start 2 find myself like xi huan shang him le..mayb it's v silly 2 like him which is..cos it's a wishful tinkin but en..if he you ban fa..let me get over wat i m facin nw..isnt it sum1 great oso..almost 2yrs liao le..tis 2 yrs..hw many ppl noe wat i m facin..hw much laughter or tears i had shed..no1 noe..mayb except my ling dear..hu reali noe me e best..我之所以没放手,是因为我是付出我的真心。从来没有这样对一个男孩子过的。。i nv do so many thing 4 a guy b4..nv had been so dependent on a guy b4..i had 2 admit..he is sum1 reali special..reali nice guy..4eva so gentle..so understandin..wei le wo..dunno ren le hw much thing..shou le duo mo dou de jealousy n sadness.. me lei..alwaez so ren xing..ming ming zhi dao wat he’s doin is wei le wo hao..me que dun wan listen..purposely shuo qi hua make him sad..ya..mayb it's true..he's juz too gd 4 me.. tt’s wat I m in e past..tt’s hw I dunno hw 2 xiang in e past…Haix..actuali e sum1 new is oso juz too gd 4 me..far too gd alr..more like i can onli huan xiang 2 b wif him..haix.. Sum1 tt I shldnt had a crush on lor..sianx...wat m i tokin in tis post..yu wu lun ci again le..sign of my depression..haix..tis post is crazy..ignore me...