i took off 2dae..specialli cos i wanna watch repeat de star awards..was feelin v sianx tis few daes..since thurs?i dunno..feelin v sad..v depress..temper hen zi ruan jiu become nt gd le..so ppl onli re me a bit me jiu will get angry le..haix..i noe u all dun mean it de..but dun go too over board la..haix..fri din go work..wake up jiu vomit..guess cos nt enough slp de guan xi ba..so lor..en went out wif mummy cousin ey all.went cwp..cos me wan buy finish my xmas presents..still left pig pig de haven buy..his i gt alot ideas lei..but sum ee tink guai guai de..anyway..ytd i feel especialli depressed..i feel like as in e whole world is neglectin me..i feel so much hidin in my own rm..dun wan meet any ppl..dun wan tok on e fone..dun even feel like leavin my hse..haix..e feeling inside me is so so mix up..e feeling hurts..hurts hurts hurts..i'm feeling so hurt..haix..i msg ee 2 pei me..but when she ask me..i oso dunno hw 2 tell her..y?i dunno e reason myself..totali dunno..i miss e feeling of sum1 special ere 2 concern me..2 gif me a hug whenever i feel like breakin dwn..i wan 2 cry it out..but no tears..i haf no tears..sumhw..i cried enough 4 e past 1 yr le..cry till e state tt i haf no more tears 2 let it flow le..i'm nt saein tt pig pig cant do all tis..juz tt...at tt moment when i nid him..he juz nice wasnt beside me..ya..i miss him..but i cant b alwaez dependin on him..i noe i haf 2 face tis myself..i noe he love me 2 b independent..i noe i haf 2..i'll..but..............i feeling so restless...no strength le...pls..help me..i dun wish 2 b so depressed anymore.i m no longer me..stress....dun even haf e mood 2 blog abt everythin..ask me type i oso haix....