tis morn..i was juz saein thz u to so many ppl..but in e end..in e afternoon..sth happen..en my mood fallen 2 e deepest again..i dunno y..i juz cant control my mood nw..i dunno y..i juz feel tt no matter wat i sae..it's alwaez wrong..haiz..i dunno y..y u muz sae him till machiam he so bad like tt..when he nt at al..i dunno y every1 like wanna pick a quarrel wif me..wat wrong did i do lor..i reali cant make any promise nw..cos i noe myself..it's affectin everythin le..sori but i juz cant 4get abt tt matter at all..n i reali cant help feelin tt u keep defendin him..i noe my feelin might b wrong..but i tis few dae de mood reali tryin control v hard le..y u juz cant understand n stop like pickin a quarrel wif me..haiz..n i did another wrong thing le..i din pair u wif any ppl..reali..pls believe me..i onli tot it will make situation better..reali..i tot bcos u feel v weird so me cai ask de.tot can make u better..but i reali dunno will make u even worse..i noe u r upset abt wat tt person sae or rather admit..but..i din wan tis outcome..cos i noe u will b hurt..no matter wat u sae/ try 2 act.i still can c..but..haiz..i noe..i alwaez sae i m ur bestest frenz.sum1 hu can understand u..even if u dun sae anythin..i oso will noe wat u tryin sae..but suddenli i realise..i m nt at all.i m so insensitive 2 ur feeling..i onli tink 1 side.i did nt tink dae e other side of ur feeling at all..haiz..i once sae b4..i m a lousy frenz..en can reali prove it nw le..haiz..i m sori..din noe i did such a lousy decision..reali..i suddenli hate myself le..i alwaez tot i m victim 2wards tis matter..but i realise.i make sum1 as a victim indirectly le..haiz..to tt sum1.dui bu qi..i reali nt gu yi de..mayb i shldnt get so close ba..dui bu qi..i do le a wrong decision le.but i wan tell u..if my feeliin is firm..nth can separate us de..hope u noe wat i saein...once again..my mood gt back 2 e same as last wk le..haiz..sori 2 those hu tried cheerin me up de..i disappoint u all again le..dui bu qi..